I guess I never really thought out how an ended relationship affects you. I thought, "Oh! It'll suck and you'll be so depressed and blah blah blah, but it'll go away and you'll move on with life". I know I made the right decision in ending it. I'd never felt so out of place. I was grasping for things that made me happy and suddenly realized that if I was truly happy with him, it wouldn't be that hard. We never fought or had any big drama. We were just kind of floating around, not really going anywhere and too scared to take any real direction. Now I'm going home for a little while before Summer A and I have to admit, I'm terrified to see him. I'm not really sure how I'd react. Mostly it's because...well...I miss him, and I love him. Not in any way that we would begin our relationship again. I just want him to know that I'm truly concerned about him. It so stupid, but sometimes I feel like he's the only one I ever had in my corner.....

 So pretty much the most ridiculous and awesome thing just happened. I'm snoozing and get a knock on my door. I get out of bed and trudge to my door and who is there but Jade. She then proceeds to offer me a cannoli.  Dude! I just scored a free cannoli! I don't know why I'm so happy about this lol.

....and I'll have survived the first week of the new semester.  On that note *collapses on my bed and sleeps for the entirety of the weekend*.

 If I can survive lighting design tech, I will never be nervous about anything ever again. We have to change lighting fixtures standing on a metal (and bouncy) netlike material at least 100 plus feet above the floor. The only thing I'm bothered by? We have to climb a ladder to get there. Yikes!

 I was a much more entertaining kid way back when.

 Josh is amazing because he fixed my computer....yay. Thanks Josh.

 I am jumping for joy right now because this is the first time in about a week that LJ has allowed my posting page to load without kicking me off the internet. Yay! Poor Boss Nass guy. Such an amazing career....only to be killed by George Lucas. Go appreciate the actor Brian Blessed today. *thumbs up*

In pure internet Christmas tradition, I guess I have to list all the stuff I got, eh?


DVD's: Serenity and Cool Hand Luke from my brother
$100 gift certificate to Bay Dermatology
One of those desk things that have a soft cushion underneath so you can write on your knees....totally sweet
Will Turner keychain to replace the broken on on my car keys *squee*
POTC socks (LOL they're cute)
Money from both Grandparents
USB Flash Drive from my brother (it's a portable storage device because my mom broke my floppy disc drive hee hee)
DMC soundtrack (kind of had to break my mom's heart and tell her I already had it....doh!)
A Kariza
And......*drumroll* a portable DVD player. I know this was so 6 years ago but.....dood.....this thing is dangerous in my hands.


Nice day. Watched Serenity, about 10 hours of Mythbusters, and COTBP (never looses its charm). Chris just left. Oi. I love you all and hope you all had a very merry Christmas!!!!!!!!!

 I stayed up til about 4 am reading GATB. Thanks Chels. So worth it.


MERRY CHRISTMAS (eve), ALL!!!!!

I've just been nudged by Sue. Well this week has been a bit of a stress in the form of "Parallel Lives". Seriously, about mid Thursday night my life flashed before my eyes. People everywhere, clothes flying, my phone vibrating against my leg waiting to deliver me a call from Brenna saying that Bailey needs us to (and I quote) "Speed the f*** up". All of this illuminated by blue work lights. Stage management...so that's what Hell is like. I left crying and Brenna left pissed off (it was all stress, the show went swimmingly XD). Lovely evening, really. Friday night had some of the same stresses but, somehow, was better. Tonya and I had a blast backstage, both of us wishing we were on, mouthing all of the scenes together and eating chocolate chip cookies. We all went to Denny's after the show. Got home about midnight. Slept til noon. I got really crampy this morning but, despite myself, cleaned the crap out of my bathroom. It's lovely right now...and reeks of vinegar. I got done with that, ate some Pigs in a Blanket for dinner and watched Dead Man's Chest. The End.

Comment and I'll give you a letter, then you have to list ten things you love that begin with that letter. Afterward, put this in your journal and give out some letters of your own.




yelosubmarine88 gave me K.

1. Keira Knightley...duh
2. The Killers...fantastic band
3. Keeley Hawes' acting skills...and her amazingly wonderful hubby
4. "Karate" by Tenacious D...I can't help but laugh when I hear that song
5. Kennedy of the Archie variety
6. "King Arthur"...guilty pleasure of the century
7. Kool-aid...no seriously...that stuff if great
8. Kristina's really loud laugh
9. Knowledge...the key to life
10. Kermit the Frog...*loves*

"Your Mother's Butt" is going to States. I get to work lights at TBPAC. OMG.

Sang badly at Forum auditions...acted badly too. Can I get anything right? Please. Something...

At the moment, I'm pretty much writing the worst synthesis essay of all time. If I end the semester with a C in that class i'll be shocked.

An extra special separate post for the amazing JEEEEEENN whom I love and it is her birthday!!!!!!! Looove you Jenn!!!!!

I really hate myself for discovering things late. "Love Actually" was made for me. It must have been. It's so incredibly hilarious.....and British. And I love Bill Nighy. And my Mom for actually laughing at him.




"Let's get pissed and watch porn."



I loved and laughed at that movie way too much. Kind of like "Maybe Baby"...but without the Tom....and James Purefoy...and Matt Macfadyen...shut up fangirl brain!!!!

Peej is back on "The Hobbit". OH YEAH!!!!!!!!

YOU CAN SEARCH FAR AND WIDE
YOU CAN DRINK THE WHOLE TOWN DRY
BUT YOU'LL NEVER FIND A BEER SO BROWN AS THE ONE WE DRINK IN OUR TOWN!!!!!!!!

YOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOU CAAAAAAAAAAAN DRINK YOUR FANCY ALES
YOU CAN DRINK 'EM BY THE FLAGON
BUT THE ONLY BREW FOR THE BRAVE AND TRUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUE
COMES FROM THE GREEN DRAGON


OOOOOHWAAAAAAAH!!!!!!!!

Happy Thanksgiving, all!!!!!!